Category: Poetry

Brothers in Arms

Brothers in Arms

We were together through it all
Every misstep, every fall
Good times, bad times, ups and downs
They haven’t stopped, neither will I

But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

But all it feels a little bit different now
That you’re not standing behind me
I’m the same me I always was
But there’s a little more, and a little less.

You were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

And I’m not sure how it’s gonna be
The things in the future that I’m gonna see
You’re not the last thing that I’m going to lose
But I had hoped to lose them next to you

But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

I’m not sure you were ever supposed to be here
Sometimes it feels like you had to fight for every second
So many times that you could have slipped away
It’s a miracle that you were here at all

But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

But I won’t leave you behind
I couldn’t if I tried
I’ll carry you every step
You’re a part of me.

You were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

 

 

Moving forward (not moving on)

Moving forward (not moving on)

It still doesn’t quite feel right
Like the world put on a coat two sizes too tight
Like it’s all squeezed, uncomfortable
Close to right, but all wrong

I keep looking at my phone
I keep expecting to hear it ring
Hear your voice saying hey bro, what’s going on?
Do you have time to talk?

The places we were together are a little emptier now.
A little colder. A little quieter.
It’s still weird that you’re not here
We were together our whole lives
You used to never leave me alone

It was supposed to be me and you against the world.
Brothers to the end
We were supposed to go through the tough times together
And the good times too

We had a lot of those.
I guess I’ll have some more to come
And I guess you’ll be there too.
Every Step.
I couldn’t leave you behind if I tried to
So many of the best parts of me are really pieces of you.

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Perfect

Perfect

When we’re still small
We think the world is so big
But our perception of it matches our size.
We think we are bigger than we are
That others watch our every move
That our future hangs on every moment.
I don’t know when I learned it
I don’t know why I ever thought it mattered
I don’t know why sometimes I still do.

And I’m sorry for all the times I was less than perfect
For each false step, each mistake.
And I know you made mistakes too,
I know you didn’t always deserve it,
But perfect is all I ever wanted for you.

We were still just kids
Driving cars too fast
Fools in the best way.
You were the first one I ever wanted
The first one I fell for
But those things don’t last forever
Many of the best things don’t
An important lesson I learned from you.
It wasn’t either of our faults
But it was hard for me to let go.

And I’m sorry for all the times I was less than perfect
For each false step, each mistake.
And I know you made mistakes too,
I know you didn’t always deserve it,
But perfect is all I ever wanted for you.

I finally found something that would last forever.
Settled down. Built a house. Built a life.
And I always wanted more for us
(But was it really just for me?)
And I worked hard for it
Long days, long nights
Away from home
I didn’t always give you my best
And I wasn’t always there for you.

And I’m sorry for all the times I was less than perfect
For each false step, each mistake.
And I know you made mistakes too,
I know you didn’t always deserve it,
But perfect is all I ever wanted for you.

 

Love. Unfinished.

Love. Unfinished.

Those days never stray from my mind.
In the summer heat, the air was heavy
As we’d walk through fields of tall grass, we’d find
The places where we could truly be free.

The sun filtering through the tress,
Your words bringing a smile to my lips,
A single look from you could make my knees
Weak, my heart flutter, my stomach do flips.

When I close my eyes, I can still see
The light that streamed from yours. Feel your skin
Soft and warm next to mine, hear the melody
of your voice as the light grew dim

And the world grew still, except for us.

 

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The Canyon

The Canyon

Walking slowly, guided by stone walls that
Rise beside me, thousands of feet in the air.
Evidence of the power of patience,
In millions of years, water can wear down stone.

In the same way, we need to turn our will
To pursue our goals. Flowing around barriers
Until they are worn away with time.
We have time. Be patient and do not waver.

But before you fix your path, choose wisely
Which direction you pursue. How does it help?
What does it achieve? So that at the end
When we look back on the canyon we wore

In the stone of the world, we find it beautiful.
We can never put the stone back in place.

 

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The Best Days of My Life

These days I feel I’m invincible
Ready to take on the world alone
I break rules, I escape gravity’s pull,
Ready to disprove everything known.
(They all say these are the best days of my life.)

A few years later I have hit my stride
I have a career, I am somebody.
I have accomplishments, family, pride,
I have everything I could want and more.
(I guess maybe these are the best days of my life.)

Now I move slow but with a twinkle in my eye
I’ve lived a long life full of joy and some strife
But when I look in my grandson’s eyes I know
That these are the best days of my life.

 

I will fight for you

I will fight for you

I would fight for you with everything I’ve got

With tooth and with nail, shed blood, sweat and tears

With every ounce of muscle, get stabbed, get shot

To protect you from every one of your fears

I’d be your knight, your champion, your hero

And protect you from every evil.

In burning sun, drenching rain, freezing snow

I would carry you up the tallest hill

But I will never fight to possess you

I want you to be with who you want most

I won’t change myself, anything I do

Won’t let my true self disappear like a ghost

I love you enough to let you be free

I’ll wait for someone who’ll love me for me.

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Loss

Loss

I sit on the hard-packed earth, feeling the chill
of the frozen ground, my warmth seeping out
into the air. A slight pain when my lungs fill
Before smoke billows forward, a silent shout.

There’s a chill in my heart, an empty space.
You were there. You were sick. Now you are gone.
I won’t hear your voice. I won’t see your face.
It’s like sitting in the dark waiting for the dawn-

Knowing it won’t come. The blink of an eye,
That’s all we are. But we are so much more,
The love we give others, the reasons why.
You were my coach. My friend. My mentor.

I’ll keep the memories, the lessons, the fun.
You called me brother. I loved you like one.

You’re only 22

You’re only 22

It is easy to fall into despair

When you look at your life and can’t tell what

You’ve done that matters. Why anyone should care

If you disappear. When it sinks, your gut,

Realizing that the things you want most

Are always floating just out of your reach.

When it feels your work is nothing to boast

About, that you have nothing you can teach

And it feels like you don’t know anything.

But that just means that you must press onward

And build, grow. You’re young. Your heart might yet sing

With happiness, more beautiful than birdsong.

Life’s a journey you’ve just begun. It’s true.

Never give up on yourself, you’re only twenty two.

New Dawn

New Dawn

The sun sets as I begin my journey-
A single step and there’s no going back.
In five years time I’m not sure who I’ll be
Who I’ll miss, What I’ll have, what I’ll lack.

Will I make new friends or new enemies,
Will I lose those I already hold dear?
Will I wake, see the mirror and freeze,
Paralyzed by the reflecting leer?

Will I recognize the man staring back
Or will I lose myself on the way
Or will I find what I now lack
And every one of my demons slay?

Forward into uncertainty, move on.
That’s the only way to go, towards a new dawn.