Material Scientist
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We have to remember
That the future lays before us
Stretching endlessly
Towards… what?
That we’ll never see
And that’s ok
Things begin
Things end
And we don’t know what’s in front of us
Or for how long
But that’s the beauty
The surprise
The joy
The heartache
The pain
The love
It’s a novel we live, not read,
Full of endless possibilities.
I got the call and got in the car
I’m on my way. I promise it will be ok.
What else could I think? What else could I say?
But I felt it, in my heart, the second you went away.
I looked at the clock to remember the time, 11:37,
Just in case it was you. It was.
And the earth has moved 70 thousand miles since you left this world, and I’ve thought about you every second. This rock keeps going on, and so will I, even though thoughts of you still make me cry, like I haven’t since we were four feet tall.
It’s your birthday today and I miss you.
More than you could ever know.
Sometimes even now it doesn’t seem real.
I hope you knew how I felt about you, I knew how you felt about me
And I hope you’d be proud of the way I’ve kept on.
Because the earth has moved 300 million miles since you’ve left this world, and I still think about you every day. This rock keeps going on, so will I, even though thoughts of you still make me cry, like I haven’t since we were four feet tall.
It’s a nice day outside, we’re all together.
It’s been a long time, the kids are almost grown.
They’ve heard stories of the man they’ve never known.
There have been good times, bad times, but more of the first. You haven’t been far, I’ve carried you with me every step of the way.
And who knows how long I’ll still be here? 42 billion miles, each one of them thinking about you. This rock keeps going on, so will I, even though thoughts of you still make me cry, like I haven’t since we were four feet tall.
I’m slower now, my hair is gone, I’ve begun to fade away
But you’re still the same handsome man in my memory.
I’ve lived a life. So many stories I couldn’t tell you.
Life is hard. Life is good.
And I don’t know what’s next
But it’s time to follow you.
I was a young man once
Full of promise, strength, and will
I had a whole life ahead of me
And plans for what do with it.
That’s all behind me now, I can see it
Didn’t turn out quite the way I thought it would be
But yeah, I’m lucky,
I knew a lot that never made it here,
We lost most of the good ones along the way,
You lose them all in the end
And you’re left with people who no longer remember
That you were a young man once.
There’s a lot I never shared with you
So much forgotten along the way
Countless days, wars fought and won
Wars lost too, with no remedy
But to keep moving forward.
Many sorrows along the way, but joy and love too,
Silver and gold threads woven together in the rich tapestry of a life.
I was a young man once
Full of promise, strength, and will
I had a whole life ahead of me
And plans for what do with it.
That’s all behind me now, I can see it
Didn’t turn out quite the way I thought it would be
But yeah, I’m lucky,
I knew a lot that never made it here,
We lost most of the good ones along the way,
You lose them all in the end
And you’re left with people who no longer remember
That you were a young man once.
I guess I’m ready to go now
The kids are grown, their kids too
It’s been good to see, but now you don’t need me
Time to go where I’m supposed to be
A place where my bones don’t hurt
And I can move with ease
A place where I can be with the people who remember that
I was a young man once
Full of promise, strength, and will
I had a whole life ahead of me
And plans for what do with it.
That’s all behind me now, I can see it
Didn’t turn out quite the way I thought it would be
But yeah, I’m lucky,
I knew a lot that never made it here,
We lost most of the good ones along the way,
You lose them all in the end
And you’re left with people who no longer remember
That I was a young man once.
We were together through it all
Every misstep, every fall
Good times, bad times, ups and downs
They haven’t stopped, neither will I
But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.
But all it feels a little bit different now
That you’re not standing behind me
I’m the same me I always was
But there’s a little more, and a little less.
You were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.
And I’m not sure how it’s gonna be
The things in the future that I’m gonna see
You’re not the last thing that I’m going to lose
But I had hoped to lose them next to you
But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.
I’m not sure you were ever supposed to be here
Sometimes it feels like you had to fight for every second
So many times that you could have slipped away
It’s a miracle that you were here at all
But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all
Go to war together, brothers in arms.
But I won’t leave you behind
I couldn’t if I tried
I’ll carry you every step
You’re a part of me.
You were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.
It still doesn’t quite feel right
Like the world put on a coat two sizes too tight
Like it’s all squeezed, uncomfortable
Close to right, but all wrong
I keep looking at my phone
I keep expecting to hear it ring
Hear your voice saying hey bro, what’s going on?
Do you have time to talk?
The places we were together are a little emptier now.
A little colder. A little quieter.
It’s still weird that you’re not here
We were together our whole lives
You used to never leave me alone
It was supposed to be me and you against the world.
Brothers to the end
We were supposed to go through the tough times together
And the good times too
We had a lot of those.
I guess I’ll have some more to come
And I guess you’ll be there too.
Every Step.
I couldn’t leave you behind if I tried to
So many of the best parts of me are really pieces of you.
Pain makes us not our best selves. When they hurt us with their hands or with their mouths, we want to strike back. Fight fire with fire, help them reap what they sew, restore balance to the world. It is understandable. It is part of our nature. But we can be better.
The hate that we give is a reflection of what they gave to us. It’s what they want. It is what allows them to see us as less than human. Whether they can’t see the humanity inside others or they can’t see it inside themselves, we are just confirming their suspicion.
So transform the hate into humanity, darkness into light. When they give you hate, give them love. Because when they look into the mirror, we want them to see the human being inside of us and remember that no matter how deep it is buried, there is a human inside of them.
I feel like I wandered through life distracted,
Flitting between one thing and another
Not fully in control. I reacted
to life. Feeling somewhat smothered
Or maybe the right word is listless.
But that all changed when I met you.
Now I feel like the world has coalesced,
Crystal clear now, full of meaning, shining true
Because in that moment all that mattered was
The look in your eyes as you spoke my name,
Your smell in the air as I caught my breath because
You took it away from me, my heart filled with flame.
You were there. You were all that was. My world.
It was in that moment that all of time unfurled.
Life is short. I learned that from you.
Well, I guess I already knew
in my head
but you made it real. Visceral.
You were 100% here and then you were gone.
A light that shone too bright to last long.
I feel it in my bones now
When I think about you
And your words.
When you’d call me brother.
You’re not living anymore
But I want to live like you.
Real.
Open.
Not hiding anything
ready to help anyone.
I want to help people
I want to change their lives
I want to change
the world.
And I’ll start one step at a time.
Thank you for being here.
For what you taught me.
Work hard. Enjoy it all. Be here while you can.
Life is short.
This land is old and worn
smoothed by innumerable years
Mountains that once reached for the heavens
Are now brought down to earth.
A shroud of live covers the low hills
Blanketing the earth in soft green
Rivers broad and deep
Many paths explored, now set.
Settling down to sleep,
How long will the peace last?
This land is young and so are we
Jagged mountains reaching for the moon
Rushing rivers cutting new paths
Carrying away soft stone.
Constantly shifting earth
A state of constant flux
The sun rises on a new world each day
Still experiencing growing pains.
This land was made for giants.
Will we expand to fit the space?
Austin Kuba 