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Spinning Around The Sun

Spinning Around The Sun

I got the call and got in the car
I’m on my way. I promise it will be ok.
What else could I think? What else could I say?
But I felt it, in my heart, the second you went away.
I looked at the clock to remember the time, 11:37,
Just in case it was you. It was.

And the earth has moved 70 thousand miles since you left this world, and I’ve thought about you every second. This rock keeps going on, and so will I, even though thoughts of you still make me cry, like I haven’t since we were four feet tall.

It’s your birthday today and I miss you.
More than you could ever know.
Sometimes even now it doesn’t seem real.
I hope you knew how I felt about you, I knew how you felt about me
And I hope you’d be proud of the way I’ve kept on.

Because the earth has moved 300 million miles since you’ve left this world, and I still think about you every day. This rock keeps going on, so will I, even though thoughts of you still make me cry, like I haven’t since we were four feet tall.

It’s a nice day outside, we’re all together.
It’s been a long time, the kids are almost grown.
They’ve heard stories of the man they’ve never known.
There have been good times, bad times, but more of the first. You haven’t been far, I’ve carried you with me every step of the way.

And who knows how long I’ll still be here? 42 billion miles, each one of them thinking about you. This rock keeps going on, so will I, even though thoughts of you still make me cry, like I haven’t since we were four feet tall.

I’m slower now, my hair is gone, I’ve begun to fade away
But you’re still the same handsome man in my memory.
I’ve lived a life. So many stories I couldn’t tell you.
Life is hard. Life is good.
And I don’t know what’s next
But it’s time to follow you.

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I was a young man once

I was a young man once

I was a young man once

Full of promise, strength, and will

I had a whole life ahead of me

And plans for what do with it.

That’s all behind me now, I can see it

Didn’t turn out quite the way I thought it would be

But yeah, I’m lucky,

I knew a lot that never made it here,

We lost most of the good ones along the way,

You lose them all in the end

And you’re left with people who no longer remember

That you were a young man once.

 

There’s a lot I never shared with you

So much forgotten along the way

Countless days, wars fought and won

Wars lost too, with no remedy

But to keep moving forward.

Many sorrows along the way, but joy and love too,

Silver and gold threads woven together in the rich tapestry of a life.

 

I was a young man once

Full of promise, strength, and will

I had a whole life ahead of me

And plans for what do with it.

That’s all behind me now, I can see it

Didn’t turn out quite the way I thought it would be

But yeah, I’m lucky,

I knew a lot that never made it here,

We lost most of the good ones along the way,

You lose them all in the end

And you’re left with people who no longer remember

That you were a young man once.

 

I guess I’m ready to go now

The kids are grown, their kids too

It’s been good to see, but now you don’t need me

Time to go where I’m supposed to be

A place where my bones don’t hurt

And I can move with ease

A place where I can be with the people who remember that

 

I was a young man once

Full of promise, strength, and will

I had a whole life ahead of me

And plans for what do with it.

That’s all behind me now, I can see it

Didn’t turn out quite the way I thought it would be

But yeah, I’m lucky,

I knew a lot that never made it here,

We lost most of the good ones along the way,

You lose them all in the end

And you’re left with people who no longer remember

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Brothers in Arms

Brothers in Arms

We were together through it all
Every misstep, every fall
Good times, bad times, ups and downs
They haven’t stopped, neither will I

But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

But all it feels a little bit different now
That you’re not standing behind me
I’m the same me I always was
But there’s a little more, and a little less.

You were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

And I’m not sure how it’s gonna be
The things in the future that I’m gonna see
You’re not the last thing that I’m going to lose
But I had hoped to lose them next to you

But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

I’m not sure you were ever supposed to be here
Sometimes it feels like you had to fight for every second
So many times that you could have slipped away
It’s a miracle that you were here at all

But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

But I won’t leave you behind
I couldn’t if I tried
I’ll carry you every step
You’re a part of me.

You were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

 

 

Moving forward (not moving on)

Moving forward (not moving on)

It still doesn’t quite feel right
Like the world put on a coat two sizes too tight
Like it’s all squeezed, uncomfortable
Close to right, but all wrong

I keep looking at my phone
I keep expecting to hear it ring
Hear your voice saying hey bro, what’s going on?
Do you have time to talk?

The places we were together are a little emptier now.
A little colder. A little quieter.
It’s still weird that you’re not here
We were together our whole lives
You used to never leave me alone

It was supposed to be me and you against the world.
Brothers to the end
We were supposed to go through the tough times together
And the good times too

We had a lot of those.
I guess I’ll have some more to come
And I guess you’ll be there too.
Every Step.
I couldn’t leave you behind if I tried to
So many of the best parts of me are really pieces of you.

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Turn the Other Cheek

Turn the Other Cheek

Pain makes us not our best selves. When they hurt us with their hands or with their mouths, we want to strike back. Fight fire with fire, help them reap what they sew, restore balance to the world. It is understandable. It is part of our nature. But we can be better.

The hate that we give is a reflection of what they gave to us. It’s what they want. It is what allows them to see us as less than human. Whether they can’t see the humanity inside others or they can’t see it inside themselves, we are just confirming their suspicion.

So transform the hate into humanity, darkness into light. When they give you hate, give them love. Because when they look into the mirror, we want them to see the human being inside of us and remember that no matter how deep it is buried, there is a human inside of them.

 

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Focus (Crystal Clear)

Focus (Crystal Clear)

I feel like I wandered through life distracted,
Flitting between one thing and another
Not fully in control. I reacted
to life. Feeling somewhat smothered

Or maybe the right word is listless.
But that all changed when I met you.
Now I feel like the world has coalesced,
Crystal clear now, full of meaning, shining true

Because in that moment all that mattered was
The look in your eyes as you spoke my name,
Your smell in the air as I caught my breath because
You took it away from me, my heart filled with flame.

You were there. You were all that was. My world.
It was in that moment that all of time unfurled.

 

Life is Short

Life is short. I learned that from you.

Well, I guess I already knew

in my head

but you made it real. Visceral.

You were 100% here and then you were gone.

A light that shone too bright to last long.

 

I feel it in my bones now

When I think about you

And your words.

When you’d call me brother.

 

You’re not living anymore

But I want to live like you.

Real.

Open.

Not hiding anything

ready to help anyone.

I want to help people

I want to change their lives

I want to change

the world.

And I’ll start one step at a time.

 

Thank you for being here.

For what you taught me.

Work hard. Enjoy it all. Be here while you can.

 

Life is short.

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Old

Old

This land is old and worn

smoothed by innumerable years

Mountains that once reached for the heavens

Are now brought down to earth.

 

A shroud of live covers the low hills

Blanketing the earth in soft green

Rivers broad and deep

Many paths explored, now set.

 

Settling down to sleep,

How long will the peace last?

Young

Young

This land is young and so are we

Jagged mountains reaching for the moon

Rushing rivers cutting new paths

Carrying away soft stone.

 

Constantly shifting earth

A state of constant flux

The sun rises on a new world each day

Still experiencing growing pains.

 

This land was made for giants.

Will we expand to fit the space?

Thoughts on the Election

Thoughts on the Election

After some reflection, I just want to put out one more thought
*(well I guess it’s a lot of thoughts inspired by one thought)*
on the election.
 
I believe that the vast majority of trump supporters are not evil/racist/bigoted. They are a complex mix of people with many motivations for their vote. They are often people who feel that the government has not represented them for some time and are voting against the way our government has operated- the stagnation and gridlock, the business influences on politicians, etc. Some feel incredibly strongly about some republican ticket issues (gun control laws, economic policy, etc) and are willing to vote for any republican who will get that done. I believe they have made a decision that condemns the political establishment, not that seeks to oppress minorities/women/LGBT people. I hope I am correct in this belief.
 
That said, we cannot reward people who support hateful beliefs. A candidate whose words, even obliquely, disparage religious groups, ethnic groups, women, etc. should not be rewarded by winning the presidency of the United States of America. I realize this may have happened because we had no better choices after the primaries. One obvious solution to that is: vote in your primaries! It is incredibly important that the candidate for your party represents your views. Next time, let’s find candidates who support and represent our beliefs and also engage in civil behavior. Candidates who will accomplish the change we need to see without calling to ban an entire religion from entering our country, without alleging that a neighboring country deliberately sends rapists and criminals into our country, without insulting war heroes, without calling people who disagree with him “losers” and otherwise insulting and alienating people. It is absolutely true that in this election, the democrats responded in kind, alienating republicans who support Trump for the reasons I cited in the second paragraph, not out of bigotry. It is not productive to alienate a large part of the country like that but I sincerely do feel that democrats would not have done that without Trump flirting with bigoted rhetoric. I don’t want to turn this into excuses. I just want to make it known that we do not hate republicans, we hate racism and bigotry. We want a president that represents the ideals of good conduct and equality that we hold as a nation.
 
Electing that candidate is hard to do while the parties are constantly trying to shove career politicians that don’t inspire confidence or trust down our throats. I believe we need to work towards abolishing the two party system that limits our choices. It is too possible that we barely agree with half of a parties choices, but are forced to choose one or the other diametrically opposed party. The stark contrast between both parties also makes cooperation incredibly difficult- they have become by definition the opposite of each other on so many issues. With more libertarians in play, a coalition of libertarians and republicans could make progress on smaller government and lower taxes without limiting civil liberties. With more green party candidates in play, a coalition of democrats and green party candidates would be able to make major strides toward environmental protection and other common policy aims. With more independents in play, we could vote for more candidates that closely mirror all of our beliefs.
 
I also think that the electoral college system should go. Political power should be bestowed by votes, not by population. It has long been the case that poor people who may not speak English well may find it incredibly difficult to vote (dating back to the pre-civil rights movement days and the 3/5ths compromise). This is often the case in republican states, but that is not essential to my point. If their population is taken into account when giving electoral votes but they do not advocate for their interests by voting, those who do vote in their state may vote against this oppressed group’s interests and be given an inflated weight, while not reflecting a large part of that constituency. Making education more available and making it easier for all citizens to vote would go a long way towards making this point null, but it is unlikely that we will eliminate this effect anywhere near the present day. This is not about this effect benefiting republicans or benefiting democrats, it’s about votes cast equaling the outcome. It’s about making sure that no vote doesn’t equal a vote against your own interests.
 
Donald Trump’s victory speech called for unity and promised to be a president for all people. This gave me hope. I truly hope that his speech represents him turning a corner toward inclusivity and fairness to all groups in this great country. It remains to be seen, but I hope Donald Trump surpasses all expectations and becomes a great president. He may surround himself with bright minds and policy experts and keep an open mind that will help him make fantastic decisions. Still, it must be said that if a candidate panders toward the hate and fear in our country and then turns the corner toward decency, that sends the wrong message. The ends do not justify the means- we need to accomplish what we want the right way. Otherwise, the next candidate might not turn toward decency and we may find that the flaws we ignored in our candidate cause real harm toward citizens of this great country. America, I do not look down upon you for your choice. I understand why this happened, and there are some good reasons for it, but I don’t think it’s the optimal outcome and I hope next time we can all do better.
 
We are all Americans and we are in this together.
I believe this will turn out better than we fear.
Keep working toward a better world for everyone.
 
Love and Peace to all,
Austin Kuba.