Spinning Around The Sun

Spinning Around The Sun

I got the call and got in the car
I’m on my way. I promise it will be ok.
What else could I think? What else could I say?
But I felt it, in my heart, the second you went away.
I looked at the clock to remember the time, 11:37,
Just in case it was you. It was.

And the earth has moved 70 thousand miles since you left this world, and I’ve thought about you every second. This rock keeps going on, and so will I, even though thoughts of you still make me cry, like I haven’t since we were four feet tall.

It’s your birthday today and I miss you.
More than you could ever know.
Sometimes even now it doesn’t seem real.
I hope you knew how I felt about you, I knew how you felt about me
And I hope you’d be proud of the way I’ve kept on.

Because the earth has moved 300 million miles since you’ve left this world, and I still think about you every day. This rock keeps going on, so will I, even though thoughts of you still make me cry, like I haven’t since we were four feet tall.

It’s a nice day outside, we’re all together.
It’s been a long time, the kids are almost grown.
They’ve heard stories of the man they’ve never known.
There have been good times, bad times, but more of the first. You haven’t been far, I’ve carried you with me every step of the way.

And who knows how long I’ll still be here? 42 billion miles, each one of them thinking about you. This rock keeps going on, so will I, even though thoughts of you still make me cry, like I haven’t since we were four feet tall.

I’m slower now, my hair is gone, I’ve begun to fade away
But you’re still the same handsome man in my memory.
I’ve lived a life. So many stories I couldn’t tell you.
Life is hard. Life is good.
And I don’t know what’s next
But it’s time to follow you.

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I was a young man once

I was a young man once

I was a young man once

Full of promise, strength, and will

I had a whole life ahead of me

And plans for what do with it.

That’s all behind me now, I can see it

Didn’t turn out quite the way I thought it would be

But yeah, I’m lucky,

I knew a lot that never made it here,

We lost most of the good ones along the way,

You lose them all in the end

And you’re left with people who no longer remember

That you were a young man once.

 

There’s a lot I never shared with you

So much forgotten along the way

Countless days, wars fought and won

Wars lost too, with no remedy

But to keep moving forward.

Many sorrows along the way, but joy and love too,

Silver and gold threads woven together in the rich tapestry of a life.

 

I was a young man once

Full of promise, strength, and will

I had a whole life ahead of me

And plans for what do with it.

That’s all behind me now, I can see it

Didn’t turn out quite the way I thought it would be

But yeah, I’m lucky,

I knew a lot that never made it here,

We lost most of the good ones along the way,

You lose them all in the end

And you’re left with people who no longer remember

That you were a young man once.

 

I guess I’m ready to go now

The kids are grown, their kids too

It’s been good to see, but now you don’t need me

Time to go where I’m supposed to be

A place where my bones don’t hurt

And I can move with ease

A place where I can be with the people who remember that

 

I was a young man once

Full of promise, strength, and will

I had a whole life ahead of me

And plans for what do with it.

That’s all behind me now, I can see it

Didn’t turn out quite the way I thought it would be

But yeah, I’m lucky,

I knew a lot that never made it here,

We lost most of the good ones along the way,

You lose them all in the end

And you’re left with people who no longer remember

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Brothers in Arms

Brothers in Arms

We were together through it all
Every misstep, every fall
Good times, bad times, ups and downs
They haven’t stopped, neither will I

But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

But all it feels a little bit different now
That you’re not standing behind me
I’m the same me I always was
But there’s a little more, and a little less.

You were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

And I’m not sure how it’s gonna be
The things in the future that I’m gonna see
You’re not the last thing that I’m going to lose
But I had hoped to lose them next to you

But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

I’m not sure you were ever supposed to be here
Sometimes it feels like you had to fight for every second
So many times that you could have slipped away
It’s a miracle that you were here at all

But you were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

But I won’t leave you behind
I couldn’t if I tried
I’ll carry you every step
You’re a part of me.

You were supposed to be here,
we had plans
We were gonna turn the world upside down
Come out on top, win it all,
Go to war together, brothers in arms.

 

 

Moving forward (not moving on)

Moving forward (not moving on)

It still doesn’t quite feel right
Like the world put on a coat two sizes too tight
Like it’s all squeezed, uncomfortable
Close to right, but all wrong

I keep looking at my phone
I keep expecting to hear it ring
Hear your voice saying hey bro, what’s going on?
Do you have time to talk?

The places we were together are a little emptier now.
A little colder. A little quieter.
It’s still weird that you’re not here
We were together our whole lives
You used to never leave me alone

It was supposed to be me and you against the world.
Brothers to the end
We were supposed to go through the tough times together
And the good times too

We had a lot of those.
I guess I’ll have some more to come
And I guess you’ll be there too.
Every Step.
I couldn’t leave you behind if I tried to
So many of the best parts of me are really pieces of you.

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Perfect

Perfect

When we’re still small
We think the world is so big
But our perception of it matches our size.
We think we are bigger than we are
That others watch our every move
That our future hangs on every moment.
I don’t know when I learned it
I don’t know why I ever thought it mattered
I don’t know why sometimes I still do.

And I’m sorry for all the times I was less than perfect
For each false step, each mistake.
And I know you made mistakes too,
I know you didn’t always deserve it,
But perfect is all I ever wanted for you.

We were still just kids
Driving cars too fast
Fools in the best way.
You were the first one I ever wanted
The first one I fell for
But those things don’t last forever
Many of the best things don’t
An important lesson I learned from you.
It wasn’t either of our faults
But it was hard for me to let go.

And I’m sorry for all the times I was less than perfect
For each false step, each mistake.
And I know you made mistakes too,
I know you didn’t always deserve it,
But perfect is all I ever wanted for you.

I finally found something that would last forever.
Settled down. Built a house. Built a life.
And I always wanted more for us
(But was it really just for me?)
And I worked hard for it
Long days, long nights
Away from home
I didn’t always give you my best
And I wasn’t always there for you.

And I’m sorry for all the times I was less than perfect
For each false step, each mistake.
And I know you made mistakes too,
I know you didn’t always deserve it,
But perfect is all I ever wanted for you.

 

Love. Unfinished.

Love. Unfinished.

Those days never stray from my mind.
In the summer heat, the air was heavy
As we’d walk through fields of tall grass, we’d find
The places where we could truly be free.

The sun filtering through the tress,
Your words bringing a smile to my lips,
A single look from you could make my knees
Weak, my heart flutter, my stomach do flips.

When I close my eyes, I can still see
The light that streamed from yours. Feel your skin
Soft and warm next to mine, hear the melody
of your voice as the light grew dim

And the world grew still, except for us.

 

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Turn the Other Cheek

Turn the Other Cheek

Pain makes us not our best selves. When they hurt us with their hands or with their mouths, we want to strike back. Fight fire with fire, help them reap what they sew, restore balance to the world. It is understandable. It is part of our nature. But we can be better.

The hate that we give is a reflection of what they gave to us. It’s what they want. It is what allows them to see us as less than human. Whether they can’t see the humanity inside others or they can’t see it inside themselves, we are just confirming their suspicion.

So transform the hate into humanity, darkness into light. When they give you hate, give them love. Because when they look into the mirror, we want them to see the human being inside of us and remember that no matter how deep it is buried, there is a human inside of them.

 

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Focus (Crystal Clear)

Focus (Crystal Clear)

I feel like I wandered through life distracted,
Flitting between one thing and another
Not fully in control. I reacted
to life. Feeling somewhat smothered

Or maybe the right word is listless.
But that all changed when I met you.
Now I feel like the world has coalesced,
Crystal clear now, full of meaning, shining true

Because in that moment all that mattered was
The look in your eyes as you spoke my name,
Your smell in the air as I caught my breath because
You took it away from me, my heart filled with flame.

You were there. You were all that was. My world.
It was in that moment that all of time unfurled.

 

The Canyon

The Canyon

Walking slowly, guided by stone walls that
Rise beside me, thousands of feet in the air.
Evidence of the power of patience,
In millions of years, water can wear down stone.

In the same way, we need to turn our will
To pursue our goals. Flowing around barriers
Until they are worn away with time.
We have time. Be patient and do not waver.

But before you fix your path, choose wisely
Which direction you pursue. How does it help?
What does it achieve? So that at the end
When we look back on the canyon we wore

In the stone of the world, we find it beautiful.
We can never put the stone back in place.

 

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The Best Days of My Life

These days I feel I’m invincible
Ready to take on the world alone
I break rules, I escape gravity’s pull,
Ready to disprove everything known.
(They all say these are the best days of my life.)

A few years later I have hit my stride
I have a career, I am somebody.
I have accomplishments, family, pride,
I have everything I could want and more.
(I guess maybe these are the best days of my life.)

Now I move slow but with a twinkle in my eye
I’ve lived a long life full of joy and some strife
But when I look in my grandson’s eyes I know
That these are the best days of my life.