I’m not sure where I learned many of these lessons
Seems like they were there before I can remember
Deeply embedded in my mind
Many of them good
Just as many bad
The baggage I carry through life and try to unlearn.
And so you caught my eye
Both of you
And I fell in deep
And I acted out the lessons I learned
Playing this movie in my mind, sharing it with you
But somehow at this time
I didn’t know that it could work
That anyone could be interested in this boy just barely becoming a man
And so I didn’t think
Because I thought you would never take interest
It would never become real.
And I’m not sure exactly how much you cared for me
But I guess it was a bit at least
And then it came out
You were friends
Of course you talked
I acted a fool
To make you both feel special with the same words.
The thing is, you were both special.
To me.
But I was lazy and I didn’t believe my words had power
Didn’t believe I had power
Was worthy of love.
And with time you both had grace
Forgave me somehow
Became friends again.
And you weren’t the same anymore
And I hope you felt that you were special to me
In different ways.
And we have lost touch over the years
So much has happened
I hope you’ve known love and joy
I still think of you sometimes
And wish with all my heart
That you are happy
And loved.