I’m ashamed to admit
That now there are days
That I don’t think about you
When I’m lost in my life
My small worries
My small joys
And everything in between
There are days when I almost feel
Normal
Like any other person
Not a care in the world
And that hurts
Because I never want to let you go
I never will
Still there are things that remind me
Sometimes when I am at the peak of the mountain
I think of you
And how much I wish you were still here
So I could call you
And tell you
And we could share it together
But what really hurts
Is in the calm, in between
How I know
I’m missing the calls from you
To tell me how your day has been
What you’ve accomplished
Or just to say hi
(You would do that a lot)
Why I am still here
And I have so much
Even though not everything
And you’re gone
But I’m happy for these thoughts
Despite the pain
Because I know it keeps you with me
So i hope in some small ways
(I don’t hope I know)
You live on in me
And I hope
I wish
That somewhere
You’re there
And you can see
And come along
And you know what you mean to me.

• Poetry